Did lovesickness kill Ruslana Korshunova?
June 29th, 2008
Love meant everything to her.
Supermodel Ruslana Korshunova poured her heart out on the Web in the months leading to her apparent suicide.
“Life is short, Break the rules, Forgive quickly, Kiss slowly, Love truly, Laugh uncontrollably,” the sandy-haired knockout wrote in a poem that concluded: “And never regret anything that made you smile.”
The Kazakh beauty wrote that love “blinds,” “sets souls afire,” and “is always the answer” in emotion-soaked passages posted on a social networking site.
Korshunova volleyed between Russian and English in her heartfelt prose, but love was a central theme no matter the language. “Do not confuse love and desire,” she wrote in Russian in her most recent posting May 30. “Love is the sun, desire – only flash. Desire dazzles, and the sun gives life.”
The soulful note warns of the perils of sacrifice.
“Love does not take away from one in order to give to another,” wrote Korshunova, a 20-year-old thousands of miles from her native Kazakhstan. “Love – this is the essence of life. But you will not give your life to another.”
Korshunova’s most telling message came three months ago: “I’m so lost. Will I ever find myself?”
She appeared angry in some postings, brokenhearted in others.
“I’m a bitch. I’m a witch. I don’t care what you say!!!” she wrote March 11. “I know what it is. I know why my other relationships didn’t work out, ’cause I’m unpredictable. Why are you afraid of it?”
In January, she wrote, “It hurts, as if someone took a part of me, tore it out, mercilessly stomped all over and threw it out.
“My dream is to fly. Oh, my rainbow it is too high,” she wrote in a March note.
investigated by NYDailynews, MBI
4 Comments Add your own
1. Audrey | June 30th, 2008 at 1:48 am
Where was her support? Where were her friends? The “social networking site” postings by Miss Ruslana were signs…….
2. Wayne Sanders | July 1st, 2008 at 10:43 am
My heart goes out to her friends and family…. I worked in Kazakhstan in 1998 for Halliburton International. Kazak people are very honest, loyal, and sincere. It seems someone broke this angel’s heart. Men & women in the western world have at best a demented value system & morals. I just wished Ruslana could have had a mentor or close friend nearby. Someone she could have trusted. A true friend that could have helped her get through her daily trials. This incident leaves one feeling somewhat despondent toward Modeling Agencies in general….
3. Alana | July 2nd, 2008 at 7:57 am
I can understand where she is coming from in so many ways. Everything she wrote that is posted is what I feel right now.
And, like her, I don’t have a support system either.
Its sad she had to kill herself, but loneliness and a broken heart will blind you sometimes.
I wonder if her (ex I assume) boyfriend knows or feels?
4. Wayne Sanders | July 4th, 2008 at 8:16 pm
Dear Alana….Sorry to hear you ladies go through so much. I know absolutely nothing about the modeling business. All I ever get to see is the glamorous side painted on television. In Tengiz Kazakhstan I worked with about fortyfive Kazaks, and five russians. Every morning they all had to shake my hand and greet me individually.
I visited a gentlemen’s club in Amarillo, Tx in 2003. I asked one of the dancers “If you could have one wish, what would it be?” Her reply was “I wish I had wings so I could fly away from this xxxx!”
I took a part time job at a similar club near an airforce base. Every payday one of the girls would say “well tonight is jerk night!” I would laugh and tell them “clean out their wallets ladies! Remember that Mr. Right isn’t going to walk through these doors, maybe just an occasional Mr. Right now lol. What brain cells does a man use to come and visit a place like this anyway?”
I’m sorry for getting way off the subject. I noticed model Karen Mulder in the news. The News! You’re only in the news if you’re Top Dog or if you screw up really bad… Any of you folks want to visit my myspace? Search for whydouluv@yahoo.com. I’m too old and ugly to be anybody’s boyfriend lol I’m just me….my words are always true…. I have nothing to gain or lose ecept maybe a new friend. thanks!
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